When compassion went to sleep

She went to sleep a few days ago and she never woke up. It was peaceful and painless.

I visited the day before her final rest. I had prepared myself meticulously to look my very best just in case she woke up.

She looked so beautiful and calm. Her final resting place was dignified and beautifully decorated with family pictures. The air was filled with Portuguese music and she slept throughout my visit.

My mother was warm, kind and loving but foremost compassionate.

She was never in the spotlight but she always made you feel like you were.

Always prioritising others well-being before her own, in private and as a nurse. As a nurse she helped people in all stages of life, treating sick children in Angola/Mozambique to elderly dementia patients in Sweden.

Mom, I love you and miss you so much.


F*CK Alzheimer’s

“Life would be infinitely happier if we could only be born at the age of eighty and gradually approach eighteen.” – Mark Twain

The many faces of Maximilian
The many faces of Maximilian

When you become a parent for the second time you’re confident with a bit of “I know this” attitude.

So when mom started your labour 18 years ago I thought to myself ok just relax this is gonna take another 5 days and we’ll probably end up cutting you up from inside her. Boy was I wrong and mom delivered you the natural way without any pain killers the next day/night. That’s your mom; a strong woman who always gives everything for her children’s best.

You were a lot bigger than the average newborn and the nurses where even joking about it by asking your mom where she had been hiding you.

The life with 2 kids was a lot harder than I could imagine at the time because 1 + 1 didn’t add up to 2 but rather 4. But after a while you could really start to see the difference in our family dynamics and the joy and love that you and your brother shared together something I can still see today.

You’ve taught me a lot about parenting, the importance of friendships and fairness and I’ll be forever thankful for those lessons.

Today I see a fantastic humanitarian before me with great ambitions, true grit and you execute whatever you’re focused on with precision, lots of work, passion and you do all this without ever neglecting your friends or family which is amazing.

You’ve been like a second father to Paula from day one and that was never something we asked for but something you decided to become. I believe you’ve built a very strong bond with your sister that you both will cherish for the rest of your lives.

Some last words:

Be yourself, listen to your head but follow your heart. Be kind, have fun, laugh, cry, work hard to follow your dreams. Don’t wait, do something amazing with your journey in life and make this world a better place, it sure needs it.

Mom and I’ll be here right next to you when you need us.

Love you,

Mom & Dad

“Growing up is losing some illusions, in order to acquire others.” -Virginia Woolf

William 18 collage
The many faces of William

You can never really prepare yourself for the arrival of your first child and even less so for the delivery of the same.

18 years ago, after 5 days at Danderyds sjukhus you where cut opened from your mother. She had tried every method ordinated by the doctor , even acupuncture, to deliver you the “natural” way.

That’s your mom; a strong woman who never gives up and always gives everything for her children’s best.

So when the doctor said you were gonna have to come out through a C-section we both got very emotional. I remember it was a mixed sense of defeat, relieve, happiness and when the doctor left our room we cried holding each other tight.

But all those emotions were blown away the very moment you arrived. When I hold you in my arms all I could feel was love and happiness.

I though as a parent you will learn your children  everything you know but now I’ve learned it’s the other way around. You’ve learnt me unconditional love, to be more relaxed, kindness, fairness and a lot of patience. You’ve given me so many wonderful moments with laughter, warmness, love and headaches sometimes.

I was merely a boy when you came and you made me into the man you hug every day.

For all this I’m very grateful, proud, happy and I hope there will be more wonderful moments ahead in your adulthood that we can share.

Some last words:

Be yourself, listen to your head but follow your heart. Be kind, have fun, laugh, cry, work hard to follow your dreams. Don’t wait, do something amazing with your journey in life and make this world a better place, it sure needs it.

Mom and I’ll be here right next to you when you need us.

Love you,

Mom & Dad